Deciding to spend my first real day off in two weeks cleaning is somewhat of a masochistic endeavor. In fact, my office has been an absolute pig sty since two cats decided to move in, spread their kitty litter all over the place, and urinate in my box of manila envelopes in protest of their forced relocation.
Nevertheless, one thing I’ve always been compulsive about is keeping notebooks. I never know what’s going to be in them. Usually, I never put more than a couple pages of work into them before forgetting about it and buying a new notebook. In some cases I did.
Finding a stack of these notebooks in corner, I decided to go through them and see if there was anything that was worth saving. Because of my compulsiveness, I guess everything is worth saving. But it was kind of a trip to go down eight plus years of Neil James and Cwn Annwn history going through these notebooks.
There was a lot of junk. There was the time I decided I was going to teach myself photoshop and I found about ten pages of notes. Several notebooks had notes taken from my business school classes years ago. But most of them were filled with music, riffs, solos, lyrics, and other creative ramblings, many of which went on to form the Cwn Annwn you know today. Here are some of the favorite things I found going through the list:
Really, REALLY old drafts of “The Fury” lyrics, where the ivory tower was more prominently themed.
The dial settings for various delays when I used my Boss Digital Delay/Reverb pedal – most notably for the Clarivoyant, Jotun, and Nightshade.
Lyrics for a song entitled “Aliens” which probably at some point turned into “Contact” although there is no recycling from these lyrics into Contact. I don’t remember writing these, but I was obviously heavily influenced by In Flames at the time as there is some serious Jotun references being lifted.
Over the years, going back to what looks to be to 2000, I had been attempting to write a long epic entitled Islands, all of which was based off of a simple 3/4 acoustic pattern, and one of my better lyric ideas. This was to be a song about getting stuck where you were while the world passed you by – presumably a reference to people I knew who were still stuck in high school several years later. Even today I think this is one of the cooler things I’ve written, but the guys never liked it, and it never went anywhere. But there was a lot of work put into it. There are riffs for “Islands” written in five of these notebooks, probably over a five year period.
When I first started writing, I would often write lyrics before writing music. This came out of a lot of boredom during my philosophy classes at the U. Several entire songs that never turned into music. One of these was a particularly Metallica influenced war opus entitled loqaciously titled “Execution Style.” Another was a somber goodbye to a more innocent time entitled “Through the Glass.”
A younger version of Neil sometimes envisioned Cwn Annwn writing shorter acoustic ballads. One of these was a sad song entitled “November” that I have complete lyrics to. I remember the verse progression was Dm, C, G, but that’s about it as I never wrote the music down apparently. Another was a song called “Solitude” which had a nice distorted outro. Honestly, a lot of these lyrics suggest somebody in need of some serious psychological counseling.
There are *countless* driving directions to destinations that aren’t written down. More amusing are that you can tell my grasp of the Twin Cities metro area was a little limited by directions saying “Take a right off of 94 onto Marion. This will turn into Kellogg Blvd.”
There are some really old setlists, probably from the Marty and even Shawn era on drums that I can hardly believe we played at some point.
I drew a pyramid at some point with the word smart written at the top and dumb written at the bottom. Why I did it I don’t know, but it’s still somewhat reflective of how I think intelligence is distributed amongst the populace.
One song that never changed in lyrics was “I Used to Give a Damn.” Probably my favorite Cwn Annwn lyrics ever, I remember writing the bulk of these in one of my business classes. They appear several times throughout my notebooks and are notable in that they never ever change. Many notebooks have early versions of lyrics that underwent some sort of revision.
There was a letter that was written to Blake Anderson who headed Angel Beach where we recorded our first ten song demo. That was old.
There is a super long rambling essay that is so pretentious I’m embarrassed it’s in my handwriting. I’m sure that what I intended to do was just spew out something and see if I could pick and choose something cool to construct a song out of. I don’t do this often, but notably, this is how the verse lyrics in Calypso were written. Somehow, “The sharpest sword is forged from your shattered hopes” and “let the stinging pain convalesce you into ecstasy” didn’t make the final cut for any later songs. Shocking.
Older logo ideas are abundant, with several Maiden-esque ripoff versions of our logo plastered everywhere. Graphic arts is just not my forte.
An older version of Lord of All Vipers where “Fuck you and swallow” were part of the lyrics brought a smile to my face.
The notebook containing the first draft for riffage and lyrics to Feral Ferocious and Grey Streak, which remarkably didn’t change a whole lot from paper to recording.
There are several complete guitar solos with notation for songs rarely if ever played anymore, including Nightshade and Intruder. A couple solos, I have no idea what they were intended for, but I put a lot of time into them.
Perhaps most pleasing are complete lyrics and music for Serpentine, which is a song that fell out of rotation once Marty left the band as the bulk of us forgot how to play it. Perhaps when Harry’s on vacation in April, we’ll spend some time re-learning and re-writing it.
There are several songs that were started even as a group but never finished, including “Six Chambers” “What’s In This World For Me” and our first collaborative effort “Sands of Time.”
One strange page, and I’m sure this is something I did during a particularly boring college lecture, contains a series of small doodles of various icons, about one inch in height, in various poses, all over my notebook page. Some of the people on here include Gandhi, Luke Skywalker, Groucho Marx, Waldo, Gene Simmons, George Washington, Napoleon Bonaparte, Fidel Castro, Kurt Cobain, Abe Lincoln, the Devil, Jason Voorhees, Jesus, Batman, Elvis Presley, William Shakespeare, and others. I just don’t see what I was going for here.
This is just the beginning. At some point, I may pull out my guitar and attempt to recreate some of these riffs and see if anything was worth it. But any rate, it was nice to take a break from cleaning to have a brief conversation with myself five years ago about my band.